let's get down to the nitty-gritty

topic of the day: divorced twice
what the fuck am i doing wrong in life? i mean, yeah i know i don't have the best judgement of character or whatever, but really divorced twice? i guess that's what i get for being in the army right? i get mixed up and involved in these impossible situations, which i know aren't meant to last, and i push and i push for something and then when i get it i usually figure out that shit is surreal. 
i get the cheating thing, i know why people cheat. the real question is why do people bother to waste YOUR time if they know they want to be with someone else? what makes someone so irresponsible and negligent to disregard the person feelings and life they say they "love!" it's funny how we can hurt people without even thinking or caring about it. damage means nothing to us, we just do shit to make ourselves happy. i guess if i want real answers i need to go to a therapist right...if i knew the answers i definitely wouldn't be writing to myself. 
good night.